I am 42 this year. Intellectually, I know I’m closer to 50 than to 30, but even typing that out, I dont really “believe” that.
I don’t even really have a problem turning 50, per se. I just can’t lock in the concept as a future eventuality. I am calling it in my 42nd year: I won’t see 50 coming until it’s literally here.
Let me add another perspective.
I am 42 this year. Intellectually, I know I’m closer to 50 than to 30, but even typing that out, I dont really “believe” that.
I don’t even really have a problem turning 50, per se. I just can’t lock in the concept as a future eventuality. I am calling it in my 42nd year: I won’t see 50 coming until it’s literally here.
Or I’m destined to die before then.
I feel like I peaked mentally at like 28. Like, I’m older now but I don’t mentally feel older. I can feel it in me bones but not in me head, see?